Puck Play Goodfellow

My Wish Is Your Cummand!

2011-10-10T18:01:00.000-07:00

James Darling gave me this great idea the other day! He was flashing his new camera around at his birthday party in the park. I asked him who got it for him for his birthday and he said, "some guy." I was a bit confused because strangers don't often buy boys things unless they want a piece of the ol' boy-pie. But NO, the guy just wanted the satisfaction of knowing James was happy. James Darling has so many adoring fans and one of those lovely creatures expressed their gratitude by buying little Darling a new toy!!! So THIS boy would love to have some new toys as well! I'm sure your smart ass already knows that Amazon.com has this little thing called a Wish List, such a creative name, SO now I have one.
As a token of my appreciation of your fan-ness I will use whatever you buy me in a porn or sexy photo shoot! You can even request James Darling to take the pictures!!!! Click here or on the photo above to get yourself over to my Wish List and start loving me with stuff.
If you buy me one of the objects you get to request how you want your personal photo of me! What do you want me to do with the awesome thing you bought me? You get the privilege of distance-Topping me for a day! Just email me with your request! PuckofBurningLove@gmail.com

Topping Juliette

2011-10-06T21:13:00.000-07:00

I love fucking Juliette. I also love watching this over and over and over and cumming on myself. I guess a faun can be tough AND tender!

Spider Puck

2011-09-28T12:13:00.000-07:00

I am Mr. Spontaneous and I teamed forces with Ms. Flash! Anna Devia is the first photographer to shoot me. She broke my model cherry! I love her work. She made me look like I am hundreds of feet in the air with comic book flare!
What do you think? I am taking suggestions: What do you want to see me in? What do you want to see me doing? I love making your wishes come true! I am a super hero of porn.

buRRRRRRRlesque! PORRRRRRRRN!!! AAAAAAAAAA!!!!!!!!

2011-09-03T23:33:00.000-07:00

I believe that we all deserve the right to get paid for the things we are passionate about doing. Entertainment, performers, artists, we all deserve to get paid for our work for the time we put in.

Are people tired of burlesque? Are people tired of porn? Are people not buying queer porn? When I settle for a low price for anything I do I feel like I am disrespecting myself. Someone who has less skill and experience should not get paid the same or more than a person who has years experience and skill or tallent. I am feeling angry because I, and other performers, put a lot of work into performance yet I am not paid for the amount of time I put into a project. I feel sad because I want this to be sustainable I am close to being burnt out. In order for me to get what I believe to be a fair wage for my performance EVERYONE in the scene or industry would need to raise their price, yet those who have just begun and do not wish to put time into their work should stay at the same wage until they have some experience under their belt. I wish everyone in the queer porn scene or industry and burlesque scene or industry would document their hours, investment, school, experience, efforts, time, skill level, and so on each project. I wish people would do this because I feel afraid that we are being taken advantage of. How many times have you gone to a show and seen someone perform and you were blown away and inspired and how much did you pay to get in the door? How many times have you gone to a show and paid more than $10 for a show that you were disappointed by? Do you think that the performers need to get paid for their effort or their skill, or just their willingness to be vulnerable in front of an audience? Do you think things in your head like, "Oh, that's easy, I could do that." "Anyone can take off their clothes, why would they need to get paid for that?" If you are asking yourself this then why are YOU NOT on the stage too?

My dream is that every performer who has been performing for more than a year or even just 90 days gives them self a raise. I'm serious, let's do it all together. . Our time, sewing, sweat, dancing in front of mirrors, and hard work is valuable. Please let's get paid for the time and energy and skill and money we have put into a project. How many people do you know that would work at a job for free? Would you work at your job for free just because you were passionate about it?
Like it or not we live in a capitalist society. I do not want to buy into capitalism but I want to support myself with the things I love to do and the work I am passionate about. I don't want to work to make someone else rich. I want the money that I am working for to go to me and/or a cause I believe in.
I do this kind of work as a type of activism because I believe there is not enough representation of queer porn actors who promote and show how to practice safer sex. I do this kind of work as a type of activism because I think there are not enough boys represented in burlesque with ideas that are there to inspire not just titillate. Is activism free? How do activists survive? Do they have full time jobs some where else and then when they are all tired from working all week they work even more? Working more on their passions and beliefs and goals to better themselves and their community at night or on the weekend? Don't most activists and small business owners get burnt out and bitter and settle down after 50? I believe there is another way. I have a dream that equal rights and fair pay means DOING IT: Treat yourself like an equal valid worker and individual, treat yourself like you want to be treated. "Don't just dream it BE it."
There is a lot of burlesque in the bay area. Some might say too much. I here there are people fighting to get burlesque out of their rock shows. I do not want burlesque to become the fast food of entertainment. I don't want it cheapened. It is valid work. Why do you think it is "everywhere"? May be because the performers are spread thin? May be because they are needing to perform so many places because they haven't made any money and they are searching for validation? I don't know why other performers do what they do, all I know is that I feel upset and afraid for the life of queer porn and burlesque in the bay area. If "anyone" can get up on stage or behind a camera and get the same pay that someone working years in the industry how is this line of activism and work sustainable?

Please let me know if you are willing to stand in solidarity with me and document your time and give yourself a raise. Next time a club owner, directer, production manager, or anyone asks you to perform for their show, benefit, bachelor party, or any party please have your resume and price tag available. Tell them your skill, experience, and minimum amount of money you are willing to work for. The less we charge at the door the cheaper we are. I think if people want a free show they can put it on in their living room, or in the park, or something like that.
I am calling all artists, queer porn stars, directors, production engineers, stage managers, diva, drag queens and kings, belly dancers, MCs and DJs, and every one in between. Please, if you've been here a while and have experience and skill in your craft GET A RAISE!!!! Step it up a notch in your show and demand the pay to get you there!

Screen Printed Undies!

2011-07-24T15:17:00.001-07:00

You Want to Huff My Manties! ?

2011-06-09T23:00:00.000-07:00

You can buy just about anything on the internet these days from wives to shrunken heads but have you heard of used underwear? Yes, used. Which I was pleasantly surprised because what if ladies stop leaving their panties at my house and I am not able to huff the sweet aroma of that glorious pussy?! I will feel lost! No joke, I'm a fucking dog, I adore the lady crotch.
Anyway... the used underwear market belongs mostly to the lady folk. I have found lot of sites with women selling their bras, panties, and stockings for the men-folk to buy but I haven't seen any dudes trying to sell their banana hammics or jock straps ... but to be honest I haven't looked that hard. SSSOoO, HERE I COME TO SAVE THE DAY! I will fill that empty and longing void so well with my customized Puck Panties! I will make you ANY flavor (hence the word"customized".)
You want a jock that I played in, a tighty-whitey I came in, a boxer that I slept in, an under-roo I fucked in, or just a pair of worn-in clean ones to cuddle, I even have a couple latex pairs! - Anything you want, you got it! Just because they are the cheapest on the market doesn't mean my ass is cheap, it just means I like you. I will be throwing in a signed photo of me for the first few buyers!!!

P.S.
I love making screen prints - so right now I'm working on sexy set specialized for underwear! I love leaving you in antici................................................................................................................pation.

Burrrrrlesque!

2011-06-06T16:22:00.000-07:00

For starters here are my appearances this month:
Seduction Feroce
June 14th 8pm $5
@ Era Art Bar in Oakland

Eco Sexual Queer Porn
June 16th 8pm
TallTree on Height in SF
Tickets!

Debauchery (dress rehearsal)
June 19th 8pm $10
@ the White Ho in Oakland

I haven't performed burlesque in a while. Let me tell you why. First I need to refresh you on the reasons why I do porn, burlesque, performance, and other art:
Reason 1.
I like attention. Blunt and simple. I need to have a show-off outlet so I don't do annoying show-offy or class-clowny things when it is not wanted in relationships. I see it as a type of therapy to get emotional shit out. Example: Someone asks, "What does it look like when a two year old doesn't get their way?" I put all my energy in what that might look like and I throw a tantrum. I muster up all that energy that I felt when I was an angry child and I scream and cry... and it feels good.
Reason 2.
I think it is activism. I think in order for trans people to be accepted as equal and valid individuals I must live as out and in front of the public eye. "Any publicity is good publicity." I also think porn is just entertainment. It is how a lot of people get information about life, sex, and pop culture. So if the only examples of trans people on TV and porn are Chaz Bono and "she-males" I want to broaden the view a bit, they do not speak for me and WE don't speak for all trans people. I also think pron is still a four letter word. I want porn, and other sex work, to be accepted as valid work. I want people to stop thinking porn is a bad thing, something that cheepens sex, or something to be ashamed of.
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This reason leads directly to why I feel torn about doing burlesque and porn right now, why I haven't performed burlesque in a while. Most burlesque performers started out doing it for free. Free, not even minimum wage. Then after a few years they end up only getting around $50.00 for their work each night. I don't know if this is a fair price. A lot of performance artists say "I do this because I love it, not for the money." I think people should be paid for their work no matter if they love what they do or not?!
A lot of queer porn actors still only make between $200.00 to $300.00 for a days work. I made $250.00 on my first porn gig and unless I wanted to get my boy holes fucked and be called something I don't want to be called on the cover I don't have a chance in main-stream porn. I don't know if this is fair either. I feel torn because I see it as activism but I don't want people to think I am selling myself short, I think my time, energy, and creativity is worth so much more than the going rate. Is it charity and activism or is it work or both? I live in the gray area and I think that's the middle not the outside. I want to solve this problem and I know the solution is out there.
I have a few ideas about how to make this feel good for me. One is to get everyone to raise their prices all at the same time. I don't know how in the hell I would do this. I think I just need to go public with this idea and see what people think. What do you think?

Here is a Sneeeeek Peeeeek, Shhhhhhhh.

2011-06-01T20:23:00.000-07:00

Photos by Amos Mac for OP issue #7
By a copy NOW!

Original Plumbing # 7, the Green Issue!

2011-05-19T18:31:00.000-07:00

I have all "original plumbing" so that makes me the greenest of "green"! Not only am I a real-live faun of the forest but I AM original from top to bottom! Allow me to explain: I have had no top surgery and I have all original bottom bits, no hysterectomy or phaloplasty dickoplasticy whatchamacallity. Don't get me wrong, I don't have a problem with other people getting surgery, I just don't want it for myself. Even though I love needles and knives... hot... I don't want surgery because I want to be who I am no matter what people think gender needs to look like. I take testosterone because I love how it makes me feel, not because it gives me hair and muscles. Although the feeling I get from my development of physical stamina and muscle mass is oh so yummy. I believe I need to be in love with myself so that I can truly be in love with others. I don't take the typical amount of testosterone that doctors recommend because I have enough of my own and I don't want be on massive amounts of roids. I don't like the amount of waste that goes into surgery and shooting T, all the plastic and bio-hazards and shit is not biodegradable. I don't believe any medical or surgical or pharmaceutical things are actually sustainable. I know that many people might argue with me about this, this is just my opinion. I look at it this way: If I was a Lost Boy out in the wild raised by wolves would I have plastic and needles and prescriptions to get all my testosterone all up in me? No, I would just be a boy, no matter what outsiders thought I was. That's how I live my life; I AM a Lost Boy who has happened to have found himself.

All that to say that's why I'm perfect for Original Plumbing the Green Issue, the all trans guy soft-core porno mag. (It kind of like Butt Mag.) I posed for the #7 the "Green" Issue and it's available to order now!

P.S. The photo of me was taken by Anna Devia. I was taken in my first photoshoot ever! I don't have any pictures of me from OP yet. You will just have to order a copy to see!!!

Fluid 3

2011-05-15T18:32:00.000-07:00

I was lucky to perform in the latest Fluid!!!

Fluid is the porno "...Redefining Sexuality" series directed by Madison Young. Fluid: Women Redefining Sexuality, Fluid 2: Men Redefining Sexuality, and then Fluid 3:...Redefining Sexuality! I don't know what sexuality I will be redefining. Personally I don't like definitions. I mean I know they are useful so we can understand each other but some times I feel boxed in by words... I will go into this later, let's just talk about my working it.
We worked all day! I love working with Juliette and James, I have done them separately before, and now we're all together like a hot sandwich! I picked up James in my van and then we picked up and sucked down some coffee , trying not to spill on his white jeans but failing because I don't have any cup holders in my van. On the way we saw some pissed guy chasing a dude with a shovel, I felt bad that I thought it was funny. No one was hurt physically but dude's pride was probly servilely damaged. So needless to say the trip there was entertaining.
James and I met Juliette on the street and we flowed into Madison's house giggling and smooching because it's San Francisco and everyone in the bay area queer community porn scene seems to already have fucked, been in porn together, or knows someone who dose, it's kind of a rule I guess. It's like the game Six Degrees of Separation. We're just sexually radical like that.
Pregnant Madison answered the door smiling that shinning school-girl smile of hers and directed us up stairs. We start out with the usually paperwork but some documentary people from HBO were filming Madison for a project, so I guess I might be on HBO too because they filmed along side Madison all day. I am a strong believer in any publicity is good publicity (Yes, I have changed my mind about Lady Gaga's Born This Way song. I will go into that later too.) and if you like my naked ass all over the internet what's the difference of it being all over TV too.
I got to fuck on a cliff over-looking the ocean, HA HA!!! Damn that was fun. I'm a faun and it just feels better to be in nature, I feel more myself. Juliette and her punky ways knew this place like the back of her hand, I was impressed. (I hope I made an impression on her too.) She lead us through a tiny, probably illegal, trail in the Sutro Baths Park area in San Francisco.
We shot the next scene in my van on the street across from Dolores Park! People walking by, some suspecting and some oblivious to the hot and wild sex in the van that WAS A' ROCK'N. I devirginized my Vicskin Outlaw on Juliette and used my mastered hand on James's cock. Damn that was a work out! They should make that an exercise at a gym: Thrusting hard with the all those fucking abdominal muscles while thrusting hard with my rippling arm muscles! I am a beef-cup-cake, not to be confused with a beef-cake, so I know a work out when I feel one!
We walked across the street all dazed and high on sex to the Dolores Park girls bathroom. Me and James are innocent looking but we are still bad boys. Just seeing a nasty toilet that thousands of ladies have pissed on gives us boners. Tasting our sweat while smelling the piss and dirt we jacked off and came together. I love being a dog! While we were coming there were these drunk girls that needed to get in to pee and it was fucking funny how pissed they were. I think they saw us from the crack in the window and got confused.
After I took everyone home in my minibus I went home and slept like a rock because I worked more than eight hours fucking in the sun and in tight quarters while loosing Fluid times 3! I hope people realize that although it is fun work it is still hard and risky work to be in porn. I do not get paid like main-stream porn actors do yet I have come up with amazing ideas and pulled 9 hour days for the sake of activism and people like you. But don't get me wrong, I love working for you.

P.S. I've decided from now on I am going to write blogs all the way through because I have so many unfinished blog entries that I don't feel like finishing. So that should make the day of the person who is becoming more and more annoyed by my lack of writing skills and bad cliff-hangers. May be I would care more if I knew more than two and a half people were actually reading this. Whatever, I guess it's worth it to keep you as a fan, even if you are the only one.
P.S.S. I love you, my one little fan you.

The Sex Positive Photo Project ... San Francisco Bay Area: "I masturbate..." Day Nine

2011-05-14T16:58:00.000-07:00

The Sex Positive Photo Project ... San Francisco Bay Area: "I masturbate..." Day Nine: "Copyright 2011 Shilo McCabe 'I am a master masturbater. I am a well oiled and skilled masturbating machine. I have polished and fine..."

Sneak a Peek while "I Masturbate."

2011-04-28T20:00:00.000-07:00

Just last Sunday I had a long awaited photo shoot... I feel so relieved! I did it for the The Sex Positive Photo Project themed "I Masturbate". I bet none of you know that I masturbate, it's a total secret. ; ) Well now the cat's out of the bag... and made a mess on the floor. Honestly, I jack off at least once a day but on the occasion when I am feeling all bored and priest-like (without the creepy NAMBLA part) I wait for as long as I can, usually only a few weeks, without any touchy. This leaves my dick super sensitive so that the slightest whisper of the breeze, the ruff caress of my jeans, or a simple wink can get me off. That's what I did with this photo shoot... not the coming in my pants part... well, may be. I waited for a very long time to have a photo shoot so I could churn out more than 800 photos. That's right, you read right we took more than eight hundred photos! I also really like leaving you hanging and wondering what I'm doing, I'm a terrible tease I guess.
This photo shoot was done in collaboration with Shilo Mccabe and her photo project: "I Masturbate" For me photo shoots are already very close to masturbating while someone is watching so this was such a perfect combo. When I am getting my picture taken I am focusing on how I look, how I can have the most fun, the pleasure is all mine and it totally feeds my desire for attention and performance. It is totally healthy to love yourself! Photo shoots feed me like donuts and cupcakes and icing and pie and... and now I have a boner...
Anyway, this photo project was so perfect for me and I had such a blast. We started out in my bathroom to clean up before I got all dirty with some classic porn on my computer. We took off from there to playing dress up and dress down with some fancy dandy ass and some working class... I really put the work in class.
My next photo shoot with Shilo is all planned out but it's a surprise, as always... but if you write me I will give you a clue!

Here's more on what Shilo's photo project (and collaboration) is about:
"Masturbation is natural. It can be a vehicle to explore our spiritual selves, and a soothing balm for many ills. Masturbation is part of a healthy lifestyle and great therapy! It is an intimate and powerful way to show yourself unconditional love. Loving yourself is a way to reinforce the idea that you are worthy of love and is a way to remind you that you are capable of loving others.
As a part of The Sex Positive Photo Project I want to celebrate National Masturbation Month with a daily photo gallery of people masturbating, along with some text from them that completes the statement “I masturbate…”.The idea is to create a sex-positive celebration of masturbation for the entire month of May."

Please check out the The Sex Positive Photo Project blog (where the daily May photos will be posted) And Shilo's portfolio

"Is This Real Life?"

2011-03-10T13:03:00.000-08:00

I touched on the topic of separating reality from fantasy a little in my post about my shoot with Siouxie Sue and I think I would like to touch on it some more... touch it all over everywhere in all those extra sensitive areas and get deep inside myself... to understand my "reality" I might have to give you a tiny history lesson with some religion sprinkled on top. Don't worry this won't hurt like history in high school, it will hurt like your grandpa telling you about some history.

I was born into a Christian home. Christians believe all sex is bad. (I will touch on this topic latter, it's going to be so sacralicious!) I was so very repressed in so many ways. I had to educate myself on every topic of real life because there are no life lessons that make any sense in the Bible unless you want to hate yourself. Believe me, I hated myself for so long because I believed the Bible. Now that I don't believe in the Bible I love myself, Go figure! So since I had to deny myself for so long I need to be as fully myself as I possibly can for the rest of my life, to make up for lost time. And what IS fully myself? I am a living being made up of energy and matter and cells and water that has feelings and desires. Who am I without my feelings? What is knowledge without feelings? We would be robots without feelings. That's what Christians are trying to do, deny their "flesh". I don't deny my "flesh" anymore because I believe my flesh is my soul and my soul is my spirit and my spirit is my mind, it is all connected. So if I deny myself who am I but just a shell to be controlled by someone. I want to feel free. I also want to feel what it feels like to get tied up and my ass kicked by a bunch of ladies in high heals and then fuck them while I act like a puppy. Is this wrong, am I fucked up? No, it's just a fantasy.

Everyone has fantasies right? If we made those fantasies real would they be respectful to other people's boundaries? Would we be the same person? Would we be completely happy or completely dead? If I make my desire to have pain, abuse, submission, and attention a reality with out a conscious plan I think I would be a wreck. I think not being aware of these desires or fantasies I would act them out subconsciously and I would be unhealthy in so many ways. For instance, If I didn't "play" at being a sex slave in a dungeon getting the shit whipped out of me while I pleasured a dominant lady for hours what would I do with this desire? Would I suppress the desire and hate myself for all the shame about this desire and get involved in an abusive intimate relationship with a person who does not respect me and perpetuates the feelings of hate? I think if I don't act out my dreams and desires I will venture towards them subconsciously.
I think I can safely say people generally want to get what they want and I think everybody deserves what they want. But what if they want something that involves non-consent like rape, murder, bestiality, or sex with minors? I think if people do not talk about desires that involve non-consent they will eventually act them out in dangerous ways. But I think everyone deserves to "act" them out in concentual ways. If we seek help with these issues/fantasies/desires we can fully get our needs met and there will be no self hatred and no shame. Seeking help could mean going to a therapist and talking it out or this could mean going to a place like Fantasy Makers (This place is the bay area's Pandora's Box.) or a professional dominatrix and "acting" it out. If we can expel these feelings and ideas that are inside us we can truly be free. Think about how we were as kids, we were constantly pretending and acting out things. What is "pretend" but an other word for fantasy. Then we are all of a sudden supposed to grow up and stop pretending and live in the "real world". What is the real world but a bunch of adults acting out non-consent in power dynamics and how they think they are supposed to be. Who told us how we are supposed to be? God?
I have the desire for attention and that's one of the reasons I do porn, burlesque, and other performance. If I didn't I would probably be an annoying attention whore and show off, constantly reaching for people's approval and not knowing why... I know because I was the "class clown" and I was miserable until I started to perform. If I don't act out my desires and feelings who am I? Am I just a shell of a person who is trying to be "normal". What is normal anyway?! I don't like that word. I think humans, and other animals, are so afraid of the unknown that we created a word that means standard or the common type; usual; regular; natural; average; sane which in itself is impossible to actually "natural". Last time I checked every single thing that nature makes is totally different!!!

My "real life" is me being playful sometimes so that I don't have to try to be "normal" and I can be ME all the time. If my fantasy life and real life get confused and blurred I would not be healthy and sane because I would loose myself. If I give myself up to the fantasy, like christian people, I would be a robot. I am not a robot.

"Fetishes" - A Little Exsplanation for Rihanna's S&M

2011-02-26T13:49:00.000-08:00

In my previous post about Rihanna's song "S&M" I shared that I was worried that her sheding light on this glorious and therapeutic BDSM underground might be a bad thing mixed with a good thing and bad again because it is only her interpretation of fetishes and S&M.
I just watched this informative documentary and I think it might help explain what is really going on in the fetish and BDSM community; why it is necessary and not just a type of art expression. If you are going to play you might want to watch a game first.
If you have Netflix it can be viewed instantly on steaming video!

The video below is "A special short cut of the documentary Fetishes, made by infamous British documentary maker Nick Broomfield, about the people he encounters Pandora's Box - a house of domination in New York." It was made in the 90's and I think it is still mostly up to date with the ideas, definitions, and feelings happening in the BDSM world.

WERE YOU Born This Way Lady Gaga?

2011-02-17T12:36:00.000-08:00

Just like my previous post I feel like I need to barf rainbows like a pissed off unicorn after getting sucker punched while having an orgasm. To translate what I just wrote: I am angry and sort of happy then angry again, mostly confused because I don't know weather to dance or do some angry pushups.
Is Lady Gaga coming out as bi, lesbian, gay, trans?! Or, wait may be she's coming out as Lebanese or Orient?
Message to all pop stars out there:
Please stop trying to speak for others, you do not represent me you represent you. Come out of the closet and speak for yourself. Take some responsibility for your own experience!

Just give it a little watch 'n' listen and may be we can share the same experience...

There are a lot of pop songs out there that are fucked up and negative and directly degrading to people so I AM happy that there is a new song that is #1 on the charts that is all about being yourself and loving yourself. But seriously do we really need a rich girl to tell us to be brave, free, and love ourselves? Has she ever had to fight discrimination for anything? Is she saying she is queer? She has never denied it. She might mean well but she refers to some people as "orient"... seriously. Really!? ORIENT???!!! So to me this just negates all the positive things she might say about queer people because being queerer than her is not the same as being of a different race than her. Just because I am judged for who and how we fuck and what is between my legs doesn't mean I know what it is like to judged for the color of my skin. Even though a lot of people clump these ways of being discriminated together I don't believe they are actually related. Is she just another pop star appropriating and taking advantage of people?
The first time I heard of Lady Gaga was when she came to perform at Tranny Shack. FYI Tranny Shack is/was a decadent display of the finest drag queens and draggy performances that this side of the world has to offer. I then saw her perform at Gay Pride San Francisco 2007. She was wearing a black spandex body suit and had to androgynous back up dancers in neon spandex, I was mildly impressed but dance my ass off... because there was hardly any body there to get in my way. There was no explosions and light shows or latex with fake blood and egg pods, is was a free show. I thought she was just another San Francisco techno faux queen... I was wrong?

I would love to know what you think of this song. Is Lady Gaga doing justice or damage?

"Whipps and Chains Excite Me"

2011-02-15T17:42:00.000-08:00

I was told this video was banned from the internet because it was too explicit. It obviously is not. Does this mean that ball gags are now a household idem? I have a few things I need to say or I might explode rainbows of conflicting feelings all over your good rug...

I need to extrapolate AND masturbate:
I am so fucking torn. Part of me feels ecstatically pleased because this video is giving visibility to the BDSM community and even queers therefore rocketing us into being accepted as reality. The other part is pissed because here's just an other pop star profiting off a subculture, exploiting a minority group, and stealing the credit while not giving guidance to the titillated, angered, or questioning viewer.

I am a strong believer in "any publicity is good publicity." For so long people have been called freaks and are outcast and sometimes put in crazy farms and loony bins (sorry, that's not p.c., it sounds fun though.) Now that these things like rope bondage, ball gags, latex, puppy play, and yes whips and chains are in this video for millions to see they are being thrust into mainstream. "Mainstream" is a bad word to many people who are part of the kinky community because there is going to a gold rush of "normal" people participating in unsafe, uneducated, bad form, and possibly non-concentual kinky play and sex. Just like what has happened to Gay Pride and Folsom Street Fair in San Francisco. ...

Okay, in the name of hope and pop these people are guilty of exploiting minorities and profiting of the hard work and ideas of these communities. Madonna did it, Beatles did it, Britney did it, Christina did it, Elvis did it, Gaga does it...

AlphaFemmes at CineKink 2011 NYC!

2011-02-10T17:32:00.000-08:00

AlphaFemmes is going to be featured at Cinekink, during the "AfterGlow" party!

Click here to see the line up sneak peek.

Click here , or on the photo, and you can watch the trailer and get perfectly teased and titillated tell you are begging for more.

Queer Porn TV Interview

2011-02-04T18:17:00.000-08:00

At the beginning of the interview you might notice I seem a little... we'll just say flighty with a dash of rudeness. Let me explain: I had just ate a big helping of vigorous and intense sex with some bdsm on top after working a normal work day at my day job. I have energy like a goat on caffeine, but seriously there was no resting. I don't top much so it was a supper fun yet very challenging for me mentally and physically. Let's see you try to answer big mind bending questions about the world after fucking for 5 hours! Oh, that might sound rude again, I just got a teency weency bit defensive because I watched myself be all goofy on the World Wide Web.

I want to make myself very clear right now: I want to represent trannies, gender varient, polyamourous, and pansexual people yet I do not claim to speak for all my fellow queers, I just speak for Puck. (Yes, I sorta' just wrote in third-person, damn it.) My opinions and beliefs are my own, so please do not think this is how every person that you think is like me thinks or acts. Like I say in the interview "I don't like to be judged", so please don't judge someone else based on Puck Goodfellow. I'm a tranny queer but I am not EVERY tranny queer.

Made of Words

2011-02-03T18:32:00.000-08:00

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Crashing into Siouxsie Q

2011-01-27T17:44:00.000-08:00

My life is so charmed! It is such a pleasure in so many ways to have sex with lovers for money! It IS still work though, and it is hard to navigate the rough path through emotions and work.

When I was contacted by CrashPad I was so excited. They set me up with Siouxsie but they gave me her other name which I didn't recognize her by. So I wrote back asking who she was and requested photos. I was pleasantly surprised that I not only knew her BUT I DATE HER!

I do admit I hesitated because one of my personal rules for myself is to not date co-workers. In my day-job-life this is very helpful and important because it keeps the drama out of my 40 hour a week life. I only have my drama vicariously by movie screen while eating popcorn and cuddling a lover.
Just a little piece of information about my personal non-porn-star life: If MTV were to make a reality TV show about me it would be a whole lot of me doing functional things like working and taking super awesome circus classes, talking to my friends, lovers, and therapist directly about my emotions and needs, and doing so much fun and therapeutic art work. There would be no binge drinking at a crowded bar and surly no making out with my best friend's wife on ecstasy after fucking my ex in the bathroom.
Anyway... Does anyone want to read about my boring personal life? NO. We're here for dirty behind the scenes details!
I hesitated because I date Siouxsie. She is a sexy bombshell pin-up sweetheart how could I not date her? In order to keep drama at bay, so it is not spilling all over the place, I must keep my personal life from bleeding into my professional life. This is the reason I have a "stage name" and a "legal name", not because I care about keeping my identity "clean". For me if I don't separate my character from who I am personally I could slip into delusion and loose track of who I am. I can use "who I am" to develop my character and become a magnified version of myself, but if this magnified version becomes who I am then I will constantly be performing, constantly looking for people to watch me and see me. Nothing will be for me anymore it will all be for others to see. Just look at what happened to Britney Spears and Micheal Jackson. I'm not at all comparing myself to them because they are mainstream superstars.
ANYWAY...
All that (above) to say I believe work can be play but play should never feel like work. That's just how I see my life.
I think through this performance I learned how to balance and have fun with dating someone I work with. It's hard yet rewarding.

Last year (2009, check out my older post "I have crashed into the pad") I did a solo scene that involved me and a hand pump pumping off for your entertainment. I walked into the CrashPad expecting my Dom to be there and was pleasantly surprised with a gift from her for X-mas! The gift was her dirty panties and a high quality hand pump to get harder with.

This year I received a live one to bring in the New Year! Siouxie Q is a perfect gift. I loved bossing her into beating me up. I am such a pain top! I wish all the spanking wasn't edited out... we'll just have to make an other one to show how I can teach a bottomy little girl how to beat me up. Fucking her gorgeous tits after laying her out and opening her up like Christmas is such a great way to cum... you'll just have to watch!

Dance Up On You!

2010-12-08T18:01:00.000-08:00

Hire me. Seriously. I will dance at your party. I will strip at your party. I will make your party so much better. No more standing around just drinking cock tails! How 'bout some cocks and tails to fuel your fire or just to inspire! Any type of party: Dance parties, bachelor/ette parties, release parties, and club parties. All you have to do is contact me- puckofburninglove@gmail.com - and I will bring my scantily clad dancing troop with me!

"I Was a Creep For Queer Porn TV and I Loved IT!"

2010-10-01T18:23:00.000-07:00

Oh Juliette, you are sweeter than a rose. I was called in by the ladies at Queer Porn TV and asked if I would shoot with Juliette March. She was only in town for an other few days and she requested me! I feel so special! She is one hot Kink model and I had seen her before because I browz the Kink site a bit. I also felt a little nervous because I am not that experienced as a top. We talked on the ride over and I felt more confident because she is outrageously inspiring on screen and in person.

It was getting late and we were loosing light and I was anxious to begin....

I had brought my trade mark cock, the Goodfella, and tucked it in my tight jeans with the Commando Harness.
I do get a bit ahead of myself when it comes to planning a scene because I really love plots in porn... yeah, I know, I'm a nerd. Actually I just really love 70's porn and they all have great plots. I wanted to abduct her all Dexter style with a syringe and all, take her to my van and wrap her up with plastic with a nice little bow. We had planned on having the scene take place in my van but there was a major issue with bad lighting. So we made-do with roof... there's always the roof. So many of Courtney's shoots are on this very roof, it is a famous piece of property because of her.
I surprised myself with how violent I got with the tender little Juliette, but she wanted it. I really get off on seeing someone so hot get so turned on by what I do to them. I started the scene out very creepy and I said things that would make Freddy Krueger (Mwah ha ha ha) smile. I thought of all the fucked up things that should never happen to someone and I acted on as many of them as I physically could in minutes with tact and wide-eyed consent. I made her squeal and drool and writhe and squirm and cum with with antici.....pation with every sweaty inch of my scheming body. But next time will be so much better because I will have practice under my belt, and that's not all that's under my belt...

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Have You Crashed Yet?

2010-08-05T17:12:00.000-07:00

You should check out my Crash Pad scene! Click the photo to get there!

I Want To Be Inside You

2010-07-29T13:06:00.000-07:00

I think I do a lot of "how" writing and not any "why". I think it is unhealthy to do something and not admit the real reasons why I am doing it. So here I go, I am going to tell you all my dirty little reasons why and you're going to sit there with your wide eyes all soaking it up and love it.
Performing in porn and on the stage in burlesque and circus is a way for me to express myself artistically, it is therapy, and most of all I want attention and acceptance. I want you to see who I am and not think I am hiding. I used to hide. I want you to be inspired to express yourself honestly and openly. I want you to not hide. It has been hard for me to get to a place where I can actually be myself so I want to scream it from the rooftops. If you want to listen or join in with the rooftop screaming great and if not I hope it's not too annoying, I'll get down soon.

In burlesque I pull a feeling I feel about something deep inside (my ass. Ha ha. Joking.) me and form it into a performance. I touche on gender roles and politics and my life experiences without talking. I can tell stories without words. I tell you about myself with movement, music, props and passion and you get to see parts of me that only art can tell. Sometimes when I watch a performance I tell myself "I can do better than that", or I ask myself "why didn't they do ___?" instead of critiquing on these things publicly I DO these things publicly. If I feel jealous I search inside the dark places inside my heart and feel out WHY I feel jealous and then I perform those things. Art is therapy.

In porn I fuck the way I want to see people fucking. I move as freely as I possibly can. I communicate with my sex partners directly and use safer sex. I want you to see it is hot to talk and use gloves, condoms, and lube with your sex partners. I used to have shame about being trans and I used to have shame about sex. I used to feel scared and frustrated about talking about sex and using protection was a hassle. It took me a while to get to this place of self love and now I need to pour it out on you. I use porn as activism. I want to tell you "you don't have to be ashamed about your body and the beautiful things it can do, so let's take care of it." As a kid I didn't have proper sex education and I think most kids have this same problem. Some kids look to porn for answers. There is a lot of porn out there that is teaching kids unhealthy sexual behaviors and I feel a need to put porn out there that can represent how I think safe healthy sex can be. I am not just fucking in porn I am telling you I love my body, I love everybody, and I want YOU to love your body so you can love everybody too. It's a total yummy bonus that I get to have sex with all types of hot strangers and hot friends and hot people!!! I probably would have never gotten to fuck all these amazing people if I wasn't in porn. Yeah, I might be a horny little slut, but I am a very picky little horny slut.

I am an exhibitionist because I want attention. I don't feed on it, I don't need it to survive, but I recognize the feeling that feels LIKE I need it. It is a way for me to feel accepted. I didn't feel accepted for most of my life. I am sure you can empathize with being on the outside or feeling excluded. I felt on the outside of the outsiders, the loozer to the loozers, the freak to the freak, so I became an amoeba. I morphed into whatever I thought people wanted me to be. I lost myself. I made a lot of excuses and had a lot of shame because I neglected my feelings and needs. When I found out I was hurting myself and others by not being real and feeling feelings it was the best discovery ever, like finding a billion dollars tax free, because hurting sucks and most of it goes away when I just BE ME! Sound clee-shay I know, but it works.
I believe that all humans are taught as children to thrive on attention. We are taught what bad attention is an good attention is from parents, peers, and teachers. We learn to get attention so that we can get our needs met from our parents. If we don't get attention we feel neglected. If we don't get "good" attention we seek out "bad" attention. I believe I don't really NEED attention but I was raised to think I do.

I perform to get the feeling that I think is a need met. I feel happy when you tell me you are inspired by my work. Even if you told me you hated my art and the way I fucked I would know that I touched a wound deep inside you and that is why you feel the need to tell me you hated it, or you just don't like it. Either way I would be receiving attention. Acceptance and attention makes me feel good so I want to bounce around fluidly and put color and vivid, raunchy displays of my sex and feelings about pop culture, politics, gender roles all over the world!!! SO ENJOY ME!

Clone'd My Willy

2010-07-12T13:12:00.000-07:00

There are a lot of toys for girls and boys but sadly not too many spacificly for tranny girls and boys. I have decided to jump on the opportunity to design and test toys that would be perfect for tranny girls and boys.

One of these toys is the Clone -a-Willy Kit. At first I thought, "damn, they should make a Clone-a-Tranny-Willy kit for boys like me..." then I realized I am good at experimenting and cusomizing things to my needs.
So I picked up a kit at Babeland.com , I am excited to do the dirty work and tell you all how to do it for all the tranny guys out there!

The kit comes with a tube for the mold, molding agent, and liquid silicone, and all the other little goodies to put it all together. For biological guys with bigger dicks the tube to put the molding goop in is a great fit, but for small dicks you need to cut it down to your size. You can also use a small bowl. I found it's best to have an assistant to help in the process, it's a good excuse to get some cock attention. Luckily I have a super sexy Dom to help me out, she knows just how to get me hard and is very crafty. She watched the temperature so I could concentrate place the mold correctly on my bits when it was ready. You have to make sure the temperature of the water is accurate so the mold powder bonds correctly, but don't worry about stirring it perfectly, lumps are okay.
I thrust my cock in the warm squishy white stuff a little too abrupt so the mold was a bit off, but it felt good. The kit comes with a medium size vibrator which is too big to fit most small dicks so I picked up a small Babeland Buzz vibe, it fits perfectly. Also since the mold is smaller than most guys I had a lot of molding agent and silicon left over! I would suggest having other sexy things to make molds of like a cucumber, carrot, or fingers and fists! You can also use the vibe that the kit comes with to put in the other mold you make. Make sure you let the silicone dry for 24 hours! If you don't the silicone will slouch and not hold its mold. Also when stirring the silicon don't stir bubbles into it because it will show up when it drys and it looks funny. Just "fold" the silicon mix together, don't beat the silicone.

If you have any questions write them to my e-mail Puckofburninglove@gmail.com.
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I'm Proud to Be a Tranny

2010-07-08T09:39:00.000-07:00

I used to not like the word pride because I was raised in a Christian family. Christians think that any feelings of self-love are dangerous, probly because the Bible is just a control mechanism, but I will delve into this more latter. What I want to talk about is real pride. I was a nerd and looked it up on dictionary.com:

–noun

a high or inordinate opinion of one's own dignity, importance, merit, or superiority, whether as cherished in the mind or as displayed in bearing, conduct, etc.

the state or feeling of being proud.

a becoming or dignified sense of what is due to oneself or one's position or character; self-respect; self-esteem.

pleasure or satisfaction taken in something done by or belonging to oneself or believed to reflect credit upon oneself: civic pride.

something that causes a person or persons to be proud: His art collection was the pride of the family.

the best of a group, class, society, etc.: This bull is the pride of the herd.

the most flourishing state or period: in the pride of adulthood.

mettle in a horse.

Literary . splendor, magnificence, or pomp.

10.

a group of lions.

11.

sexual desire, esp. in a female animal.

12.

ornament or adornment.

None of that sounds dangerous to my body or anyone elses!
I used to feel "not good enough" and that I could not ever be accepted as a "real" male. I have realized that everyone feels this way, yes, everyone! Every person feels afraid of not "passing" as whatever they wish they were: People put on make up, dye their hair, pierce body parts, tattoo their skin, wear leather, buy fancy cars, go to the gym, get boob-jobs, nose-jobs, lypo suction, gastric bypass surgery, penis extensions, hair extensions, hair growth surgery, and the list goes on and on of the things that all humans do to "pass" as sexy or normal or beautiful. And if they don't pass as this idea of what is acceptable they hate themself or feel "not good enough".

I feel like I couldn't be any hotter because I am not comparing myself to an image of some guy I want to be, I am who I want to be and I have pride in myself. I might sound cocky but really it just means I do not feel any better or worse than any other animal/person on this planet.

Just call me Boy Gogo.

2010-06-24T14:21:00.000-07:00

Please contact me if you want me to
Gogo at your party!!!

I worked it so hard I got sick! Seriously. Thank you for all your support and all your dollars! I hope all you had a super amazing pride weekend. I sure did.

Death Burlesque at ATA: Bordello premiere

2010-05-25T15:38:00.000-07:00

Alpha Femmes in Shangri L.A.

2010-03-29T12:22:00.000-07:00

My birthday was more exciting and fulfilling than I could have dreamed of. An amazing weekend filled with Dommes, pain, pleasure, and Hollywood.
I had never been to L.A. before and I wanted to be a tourist but I only hung out at a mansion, a five star hotel, and Ripley's Believe It or Not. I got a stellar birthday gift of a room at the Rousevelt Hotel, and no, I didn't see any movie star ghosts. They say this place was haunted but I think they say that about any place that is over 20 years old these days. I hung out pool-side in my underwear with a dirty martini in hand. I got a taste of what it feels like to be a real porn star. It tastes like cup cakes, martinis, and blood... I love the taste of blood.
I drove down to L.A. with my "co-star" Akira we had fun laughing and listening to bad pop-countery stations, my radio only likes a few stations, and eating too many snacks. We were like playfull kids on the way to Disneyland or something, if Disneyland was filled with latex, chains, and sex! I never feel nervous, or I haven't so far, and this time I was looking foward to meeting the crew and April Florez.

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More writing soon!

Blood, Sweat, and Akira

2010-03-13T14:40:00.000-08:00

After "Seven Minutes in Heaven, Tender Hearted" was over and every one else had left the house Courtney Trouble, Akira, and I are in the kitchen talking about the smoldering productive day. I turn to Akira and tell her, "I am seriously sorry we didn't get to play today because I think you are super hot." I didn't know what reaction would happen and I didn't care, I just wanted her to know I didn't avoid working with her that day on purpose. She smiles and says, "me too." Noticing our sparks Courtney says to us, "You guys can have a 'bonus scene' if you want." We all look at each other and feel each others energy and I say "lets do it!"

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Live Mostly-Nude Boys! Hot Boylesque Injection.

2010-02-25T17:11:00.000-08:00

Come on down to the White Horse and watch me shake it live in the flesh. Your tip$ are welcome to enter the creases of my underwear, it is an excuse to touch me.

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Ready?

2010-02-16T14:50:00.000-08:00

Butch Bois on Bikes with Leather and Lube.

2010-01-30T02:02:00.000-08:00

I had a motorcycle and I sold it for a bedroom with wheels, but I miss it because bikes are hot and fun to ride, but I have never rode one this way before.

I walk in behind James and he doesn't know I'm there. He has his tools out "working" on his bike... more like working his tool on his bike. I watch him for a while and find myself getting hard. How suprizing, I don't usually like guys, but I decide to let my hard on do the decision making this time... like I don't usually... no one's watching right?

I'm a tease... I will write more soon...

I WAS At AVN... Sort of

2010-01-19T17:34:00.001-08:00

My friends went to the AVN Awards and guess who was life size right when you walk up to the Good Vibe's table? Yes, yours truly. I get the award for largest poster of a queer fresh meat prono boy!

Wanna' Wrestle? Write Me About It!

2010-01-12T20:34:00.001-08:00

Contest!!! Write me a sexy wrestling story and win!!!

Send your entry to puckofburninglove@gmail.com. The one I like best will be posted to my blog and get an autographed picture of me in my birthday/wrestling suit!

I just want to play... that's my middle name.
Photos by Joie Ray.

I Will Fuck You Tender... Hearted

2010-01-04T17:14:00.000-08:00

Reality T.V. + Porno = "Gonzo"!!!
I am really good at improv and I enjoy feeling free to go with what I want to do, so I am super happy to be a part of the SECOND queer gonzo porn ever made!
I arrive at a hip little apartment in S.F. and settle right into a comfy leather couch. Everyone was there already and watching the first Seven Minutes In Heaven, Coming Out. I had not seen it yet so it was fun to look back and tell every one what else happened that got cut out, and laugh about my silly faces. I am such a goof, at least I know how to work it. I have been good friends with Red for a while and I have always wanted to play with her and never could find a way to ask, like "Harry Met Sally", so I was stoked to be called back into action. In this film there's a hand-held mini camera instead of the "confessional" so that leads to a lot of "first-hand" shots.

If you want to fuck like Puck: I used the Randy on Red with the Commando Harness. I used the Bandit on Akira with the Jag Harness. Under all this was my latex tighty whiteys from JT Stockroom.

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I Have Crashed in the Pad

2009-12-23T12:00:00.000-08:00

I arrive at the Crash Pad in S.F. excited and ready to go as always. I was not nervous, but I know I usually make goofy faces when I model, so I felt a but self conscious. That's just a part of my charm I guess, when I fuck (and fuck myself) I am real, I don't try to make sexy faces, I make real I'm-fucking-and-I-love- it- faces.
Anyway, I had a date with two ladies who gave me a key to the Crash Pad where we were going to play. A Domme named Miss Violette Thorngate , who knows how to kick ass with such style and grace while giving no mercy, and a hot little number I sometimes call my girlfriend, who is just perfect, were going to team up on me. I live such a full and fancy fluctuating polyamorous life! Although, when I open the door no one is there, but what a hot rain-check that will be! I was not discapointed because a gift is waiting for me on the bed! Dang, I bet they're lauphing their hot femmey asses off right now about such a good set up! I do have to say how lucky I was to receive this gift. I make the best out of every situation I'm in, that's another one of my charms! You can view and purchase the gift I received here. The other half of the gift ... well, you'll just have to watch the video.

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Interview for HotMoviesForHer

2009-12-23T08:12:00.000-08:00

"One of the my favorite things about the queer porn explosion is that there are more and more opportunities for stars like today’s featured performer Puck Goodfellow. When I first saw him in action in Speakeasy, I was immediately drawn to his energy, and I suppose that tight little body didn’t hurt either!

Of course, it turns out there’s a lot more to Mr. Goodfellow than meets the eye, so we asked him to take the time to fill out our 20 question interview. You don’t want to miss the results!

1. How (and when) did you get started in the industry?
I got involved just this year, July I think, with Courtney Trouble ..." Click the link above to go to the rest of the interview!

I Am a Butch Boi Now

2009-12-18T16:51:00.000-08:00

I was hanging my paintings at Black and Blue Tattoo in San Francisco for an art opening and I got a call from Leo about doing a last-minute photo shoot that day. Leo co-owns Butch-Boi.com, a site designed for butches of all kinds to view and buy porn, sex toys, and other butch dyke or trans-guy aparel. I was scheduled to do a scene with them with James Darling that evening so I said "what the hell, I like to live spare-of-the-moment. " So Jules, their photographer, came by the shop and we only had a few minutes to find a place somewhere in the city for me to strip down in front of Jule's lens. Leo suggested a chain-link fence back-drop to Jules but my 1983 VW Vanagon was right outside just waiting to be taken advantage of. I had a fun time inside Peg, my van's name (short for Pegasis.) because I felt warm an comfy, even though I had to keep an eye out of the corner of my eye while I posed and modeled my britches off. When I pulled my dick out for some hot jerking scenes I had to think fast because who knows what inocent person outside could feel violated by just a quick glance at my huge piece while someone dances around it with a camera inside a "creepy van". Vans get bad raps for being "creepy" already, I hope I didn't conferm any of those misconceptsions... may be the rumers are true, I guess I am a perve.

Go Go Boys For Hire

2009-12-17T16:36:00.000-08:00

Seven Minutes In Heaven was my Coming Out

2009-12-16T17:30:00.000-08:00

It was an amazingly luxurious house in Upper Haight. I didn't know what to expect- I figured I'd be playing with and fucking beautiful ladies all day, but that seemed too good to be true. How surreal! I was more excited than nervous, but I was going to be surrounded by girls and that really makes a boy like me want to explode. Judy Minx was there as well, but just for moral support because the U.S. wouldn't let her perform here for some stupid reason that I don't understand. Sex laws are confusing to me. North America likes to think it is progressive and liberal and free, but when it comes down to it, our country a big prude. I met Judy a year ago because she was traveling here with Wendy Delorme to promote Wendy's book, Quatrième Generation. My gorgeous and classy Domme, Miss Violette Thorngate is good friends with both Judy and Wendy, and she arranged an introduction.

The day started with a photo shoot and went straight to a game of spin the bottle. When I've played spin the bottle in the past it was such a tease, but this time I got to get right to what my dirty little heart desired. What a great way to start out a "slumber party"; with absolutely no slumbering! I wanted to use all of the food from the kitchen to have a food fight and break the pillow with a nasty pillow fight, but the house was so nice that I would have felt bad if it got out of control. It would have, knowing these girls. I'll just save that fantasy for next time. All of the ladies were so sweet and hot I couldn't think, and half of them were virgins to porn!

Carson is a pro and I have such a crush on her. She taught me how to suck cock by bossing me around her body, telling me just what to do and what she wanted. Holy shit, Carson is a powerful babe! More juice on the behind the scenes action to come. I love to delay pleasure...

By the way you can totally buy the cocks I used to fuck in this flick! I gang-banged away with the Mr. Bendy on Sofia and I used the Bandit to fuck Jolene Parton and strapped them both on with the Aslan Driver Harness. BUY THIS MOVIE!

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No Fauxxx For You.

2009-12-11T19:11:00.000-08:00

So I say to Courtney Trouble, creator of NoFauxxx.com and sexy director extrordinaire of Reel Queer productions, "I would love to be in porn." and she totally put the money where my mouth is. She offered me a modeling spot on No Fauxx, and I felt tingly all over!

I arrived at Courtney's house on a sunny summerish day in San Francisco. I knew what I wanted to do in this photo set- I had it all planned out in my mind. Imagine a teenage boy in roller skates, discovering his first porno magazine in a pink bathroom in the early 80's. Just let your mind take off and if you check out nofauxxx.com and get a membership, (it's only $9.99 for a whole year and worth it), you can see me take it all off! It was such a fun experience. I am goofy and sexy and totally myself and cum all over a tiny pink bathroom and vintage Playboy mags!

My First Photoshoot

2009-12-11T17:29:00.000-08:00

I have always been a show off in my own way. I love to please and I take direction well. What a good bottom I am! I have always suspected I would make a good model, but I'm short and trans and that is not exactly model material for the "real world". Now I'm doing it in my own perverted way.

I discovered that even though it might seem easy to have someone take pictures of you, it is not. I have to know what my face is doing at all times and I have to have total control of my body. I have to be totally present and see myself in my mind's eye. It is kind of like an out of body experience when I model, since I am relaxed and yet looking at myself from the outside.

I got my start by working at Babeland.com. A co-worker and friend of mine, Ana Devia needed some hot photos to broaden her portfolio. She's professional but new to the business. I had been waiting for another co-worker, Jackie Strano (star of Hard Love and co-owner of S.I.R. Productions), to give me the heads-up on a new production she needed some performers for and I was really hankering for my porn-life to begin.
Since I am a playful and dapper faun-goat-boy-creature I had to wear my fur and horns for my first shoot. I also wanted to roll around in the grass so we went to Golden Gate Park in San Francisco.
I started out wearing my shirt because I was still a little self conscious of my puffy nipples. I'm a trans guy and I can't speak for all of my kind but I don't care anymore about how "big" my chest is, every body has them and I think we as humans need to just get over how big or small everyone is. Anyway, I ended up taking off my shirt and that is when I loosened up and I felt more myself. I thought of sex and rainbows and dancing and fucking and flowers and unicorns and pixies and trees and sex and fur and beautiful smells and... did I mention sex?

Fresh.

2009-12-09T13:15:00.000-08:00

This is me at 22 years old. On my back and waiting for the show.